Yessss!!! The Mixed States Project has successfully crossed over to multimedia status with my first working GIF!! Last week I spilled about twenty hours into trying to create this type of animation in Keynote, but when exported as a movie all variable customs timings were gone and it moved about as fast as a nervous slug. My next step was going to be to recreate the animation in Final Cut (as a video), or learn how to create a GIF in Photoshop, but last night while researching something else I stumbled upon the solution to my technical woes. I couldn’t believe it!!! When they say, “There’s an app for that,” they really aren’t kidding! The animation you see above took less than five minutes to make! I’m in media heaven!
As a guy who always had the latest photo and movie equipment in the 50s and early 60s, my dad would have loved this!! Here’s to keeping the geek gene alive!!
You didn’t know
I would pull you
from the grave
and hold you so close,
but neither did I…
and now here you are
your blood in my veins
a face in the mirror
that is not me,
a mysterious fusion
forged ever so lovingly
because I still believe in you.
Imagine the place
where miracles are born
of hearts and desires
and the alchemy of the impossible
is made tangible to the soul.
The more I work on the Mixed States project, the more I feel connected to my father, who was lost to me in a fatal car accident when I was only five years old. After his passing I was not permitted to grieve, and for fifty years it was drilled into my head that he was nothing but an asshole. This was difficult for me to reconcile because I was his only daughter— daddy’s little girl—and in 1963 he was frozen forever in my mind as a god on a pedestal. A wise person recently suggested that [in order to resolve conflicting stories and feelings] I needed to learn who my father really was—not the god, not the supposed asshole—but the human being inside the man.
What I’ve learned so far is that he was very generous, affectionate, a great storyteller, and a gifted artist. He liked to travel and read, and always kept a dictionary beside his bed. He loved new gadgets and cameras, and his boundless passion for knowledge required a serious investment—a twenty-four volume, leather-bound, hardcover set of the 14th edition of the Encyclopedia Britannica (1962). I just know my dad would have loved today’s gadgets, Google, and especially the work that I do! I’d like to think that he would have been proud of me.
The Mixed States project is turning out to be much more than I had anticipated. Today I ran the first generation double-exposures through additional processing, which has transformed the images even further. Unexpectedly, it gave the feeling that I was melding my father even deeper into myself, thus the Beyond the Grave idea and the poem above. Although this journey is intensely personal, I can only hope that my work resonates with some of you out there. ❤
My earliest training in the arts as a young adult was taking night and weekend courses in graphic design and airbrush painting in Vancouver. There were no computers in those days, and everything was done mechanically by hand. As an audiophile with a collection of LPs (250+ now all gone), I was always impressed by album cover art and spent a lot of time studying the fronts and backs of the covers. These days I’m more of a technophile, and whenever I discover new apps I spend hours processing hundreds of [my own] photos and images through one or more of the apps to see if anything interesting happens. Maybe it explains why I’m so drawn to the square format for much of my work… because these images sure remind me of album cover art!